Kalari will eat you

You know id love to say that I am the kind of person who does not let many things get to me. I guess outside my gaming world that is true I tend to try to be laid back. This year has been rough for my family and myself so I havent been as easy going as I normally try to be. That being said even as laid back as I tried to be the forums of DDO always seemed to hit that button in me and its due to a basic reason. People have no respect for others. Whether its internet tough guy/gal syndrome, a lack of empathy for others feelings or thresholds the amount of assholes who get off treating others as their feelings don’t matter seems to be dominant on those boards and its aggravating. Maybe I shouldnt let it get to me but it is hard sometimes when your in an emotional state it does not take much to set you off. Having someone mock your annoyance with a decision that does affect your game play is rude. It makes the person doing it look like the ignorant tools they are (looking at you mister oh your going to quit and still play or this is a non issue you whiner types.)

I’ll be honest I’ve been truly trying to justify my continuing to play DDO a lot lately. Even with the show as much as I love interviewing players not playing DDO does not automatically cut me off from friends who can come on. It doesnt stop me from speaking about the game and other mmos I may try. So right now continuing my subscription kinda feels like the end of my marriage, where I kept trying to justify staying around even though I havent been happy in a long time. The one thing I can honestly say is when I do make my official decision it wont be announced on the forums. I have this show and blog sites I also think its only fair to discuss my feelings with my Guild before making any permanent decisions. Point blank if I do walk away from DDO no one else will be as impacted as they will. With 21 alts many of them filling vital roles in raids and quests it would not be right to just quit on them.

Either way I have till October to decide, but honestly with the way they have been handling update 11 with only releasing certain knowledge and leaving other items (Artificers being basically a pay to play class till update 12) is unacceptable. Its disrespectful to your player base to avoid an official announcement of this and have us find out second hand threw a fellow player about this decision and to only back it up with a Forum mod to confirm that this is indeed true is even more shameful.

Its not about affording the class once again or supporting the company, for many this is and will be a non issue and I respect that for them. For me though since I have been feeling resentment on and off since the relaunch see this as just another reason for me to look towards greener pastures. DDO has held my attention for nearly 4 years but alas all things good or bad have an end to them. I know that if by October I am still unhappy it will mark my end for DDO not just an end to a payment plan as a poster rudely put it. For me to stop paying for my sub means I lose 17 playable alts all the content I previously had locked and the Warforged Race. It would not show Turbine any dissatisfaction for me to return premium hell it would make it seem like I wish to give them tons of money and to leave for me would be easier then re starting as a free to play player trying in vain to stick it to them by unlocking things via favor.

So to those who think they are being clever mocking those of us who choose to feel affected by this I hope you never are in this position and I hope you know a lot of us are not just barking this time. My dissatisfaction is real and for the first time truly in four years I am not considering a rage quit but an absolute cut off from Turbine and its games and thats the sad truth about this. I guess I needed to get this out of my system I couldnt sleep and got a event to attend at my sons school in a few hours. I did not feel conveying this on the my ddo blog would help since they have the power to erase that if they deem it offensive. So I turn to this blog and perhaps my next cast to discuss my future which for now is looking like a huge change to my gaming is coming.